There are over 100 boys living at the Regional Rehabilitation Center for Youth. Located in La Union, it is part of the greater Philippines DSWD, and Scott, a Children, Youth, and Family PCV, has been working here for almost two years now.
As we enter the high-walled gates of the center, the boys kick plastic straws threaded through bottle caps into the air. They shuffle around, machismo and v-legged, in their plastic tsinelas and sagging basketball shorts. Some practice ball-less jump shots on the cracked concrete court, rehearsing the placement and flip of their hands. As six Americans walk past them, they stop to leer at us. Their ages range from 12-18, though a few are as old as 24. Only a third of them have privileges to leave the center. They are allowed to attend school and to buy candies at the sari-sari store across the road. To them, these six tall Americans are basketball stars, rock stars wearing Raybans with guitar case in hand, the next Idol or Gaga.
These are boys ‘in conflict with the law,’ as they say. What that term really means, we can only postulate. Some are locked in here for mere behavioral issues: acting out in class, disobeying the will of their parents, sibling rivalry. Many are here for theft, dishonesty, and bullying. Some have been charged with murder, of suspected rape or molestation. Most stay here for less than a year. Yet, some of these boys have been here for years, stuck in limbo inside a system trying to both account for them and rehabilitate them with life skills and livelihood training.
In this music camp, I am teaching a group of boys how to sing. Fifteen faces look upon me as if I am about to offer them the world, but will ask them to crawl across an electric fence to get it. They are suspicious, excited, and inquisitive of me- this foreign creature from another land and another language. After a few attempts to explain what a scale is, I realize that several of them cannot read, let alone understand my English. Luckily, after several clumsy attempts to incite some sort of noise resembling music, one of the Filipina staff members, Mahm Raquel, comes to my rescue by translating my words into Tagalog and Ilocano.
Most of my class is actively tone deaf, and though I keep pressing repeatedly on a note on the keyboard, they continue to sing completely off pitch. By doing vocal drills and sirens, I try to explain the concept of lower and higher so I can try to manually adjust their pitch as they listen to the keyboard. Yet the concept of higher and lower, even done through hand signals, does not adequately translate into their ability to control their voice. After much practice, a few of the boys momentarily reach pitch, and, in my excitement, I give an enthusiastic thumbs-up followed by a palm-up stop sign in an attempt to maintain that pitch. Yet as their voices continue to waver, like a crowd riding a rollercoaster, the attempts at music really just get lost in the noise. I even attempt to encourage a description of what it feels like inside their body to match pitch, but this proves to be a level of critical thinking that the boys are both uncomfortable with and cannot adequately express.
Next, I try to practice basic rhythm, in the hope that the boys can at least connect with the music in this way. We start by clapping basic rhythms, patterns of 2, 3, and 4. Yet, as I clap a basic beat and speak the numbers, the room becomes a din of clapping, boys struggling to catch up as they clap in every random space between the beats. After several minutes of adjusting speed, practicing speaking and clapping both apart from each other and together, only about half the boys are able to clap on beat. Even as we practice clapping to music, only about half can keep an accurate basic rhythm.
By now, only a few are actively participating, one because he is making his best creepy attempt to flatter me, and another who still seems to be stuck counting to four. I am dripping with sweat, forcing a smile on my face to swallow the lump of anxiety inside my throat. Inside, I feel I am swimming in my own failure, in inability to really reach these boys, affect change, or encourage interest within them.
During lunch, I try to gather my faculties for the afternoon session, though the sun is screaming down at us and the electricity has gone out again, leaving us soaked in our own sweat, strung out on benches in a futile attempt to dry out as we await the arrival of the schoolboys.
Half an hour later, the boys amble past the guards in their neat school uniforms. Already, they are a welcome respite from the failed chaos of the morning, even as they shoot rocks into the basketball hoop and demonstrate their best ‘Michael Jordan’ jump shot in 1 cm thick tsinelas. The boys orderly enter the classroom, bowing their heads to me in reverence, acknowledging me with a shy smile and a “Good afternoon Mahm.”
I repeat much of the same lessons as in the morning session. I begin by asking how their day at school went. A bit like their fervent jump shots, they zealously fumble for the words, “uh..um..berry good mahm. How..uh… your day?” In definite contrast to the energy of the morning session, the boys here are actively attentive. Though I hadn’t realized it at the time, the boys who attended the morning session wouldn’t look at me in the eye.
As we practice notes and scales, almost all the boys can sing on pitch, though it seems more difficult for them to match a single pitch than to sing along with a song. Clapping proves to be equally as rewarding, as the boys can differentiate between different rhythms and clap along to the songs I am playing. All of my anxiety has diminished, and I’m smiling and laughing and sharing with these boys. Many of them are so endearing that I have a hard time believing that they could have committed serious crimes. If anything, being with these boys renews much of my faith in education, as there is an immediate and a stark difference between the schooled and the non-schooled boys at this center.
For our final performance, I had chosen a Jason Mraz song, “I’m Yours,” since it is rather easy to sing. I figured that the boys would already know it, since I pretty much hear it on a daily basis, either from my students’ lips or on the radio. In the afternoon session, the schoolboys immediately pick it up, clapping in time, and singing the lyrics off the sheet of manila paper in front of them. Delighted that they have prior knowledge of the song, I focus my efforts of working on particular passages, adding harmony parts, and practicing some pronunciation issues.
In the morning sessions, it is a whole other story. Only one of the 13 boys has heard of the song. I also realize that since many of them cannot read, they cannot read the lyrics I had written out for them. I do my best to encourage the literate boys to try to help the illiterate, but it proves neither effective nor productive. I really begin to contemplate just how small some of these boy’s worlds are. They are locked inside this facility for 24 hours a day without any real contact with the outside world, without a real support system, and without the ability to gain any solid sense of education.
Yet, this is the precisely the reason why having a camp such as this provides such a positive outlet for them. It allows the boys a chance to learn in a non-threatening environment. It allows them a chance to develop a hobby, a passion, or even just a positive diversion for their time.
Travis, another PCV, shows chord fingerings inside an eager circle of guitar-wielders who shakily adjust their fingers to form the C chord. He shows one boy an alternate chord fingering using his pinkie, as his immobile ring finger was broken in a fight. In another room, Ryan demonstrates how to properly hold drumsticks and keep basic rhythms. For hours, the drum set rattles, as the boys attempt to teach their hands and feet to keep different beats in tandem with one another. Scott and Keith sit in a large hand-drum circle beneath the banana trees. They pass simple rhythm patterns around the circle for the boys to mimic and build upon. Clumsily, hands and feet gyrate, searching for the correct rhythm and hand placement.
Other boys are huddled around the circle, waiting for their chance with an instrument. Yet, as meryenda comes, as the sun begins to set, as we wipe the sweat from our brows and prepare to make haste, Raymond still practices his waltz pattern on the drum set, attempting to get his limbs to work separately together. Macky sets and resets, sets and resets his fingers to the C chord. Jaylord fumbles at the microphone chord, and Lawrence rocks his body to match the beat of his hand drum. Ramon taps his foot, twists pegs on his $15 dollar guitar, and strums quietly. Down, up, up; down, up up….